Sorry, the first half of my post is kind of gross...

I just recently started seeing this guy "Mark." It's very new- we're not at the stage of being in a relationship yet.

I had a dream last night that Mark and I were staying in a hotel together. I was giving him a hand job, and he inadvertently peed all over me. I was thoroughly disgusted and immediately went to go shower, all the while angrily telling him how gross it was. He was so embarrassed that he started crying, and I felt really sorry for him. However, I never actually apologized for being rude about it.

Later on, we went to a party that was going on at the hotel. I drank a couple shots of alcohol but ended up blacking out because of it. Mark left the party kind of early. Later in the night, several people told me that I made out with some guy named Seth. I had no recollection of this whatsoever, given that I had blacked out. However, I looked at my phone and realized that I had sent Mark a drunken, babbling text message about how I "made out with this guy Seth." I didn't catch what the rest of the message said, and when I tried to go back and find it again, my phone kept on not working.

Seth ended up walking past the doorway of the room I was sitting in, and he was much older than me and not attractive. I told whoever was sitting with me that Seth was not cute at all, and he ended up overhearing me. I tried to catch myself by saying, "No, that's not what I meant! You're just a lot older than me!" But he was still offended.

Mark ended up being really upset about my making out with this other guy. I remember thinking, "God I hope this is a dream, because I really like Mark and don't want to screw it up with him."

The key to understanding your dream is knowing the meaning of the symbols. Here are links to their definition on this site...

hotel

sex

urinating

cheating

phone not working

Dreams are expressions of your feelings about your waking life at the time of the dream. Try to recall what was going on at the time that made you feel demeaned/ashamed, angry, and ultimately needy. Feelings in dreams are never disguised, so how you feel IN the dream is how you feel about its subject in waking life.

First look at the setting of your dream... a hotel, a common symbol of impermanence in relationships. In your dream, you feel close to Mark (sex), but then he urinates on you which makes you feel demeaned and angry. You get back at him by cheating with another. You try to fix it by reaching out by phone but it's broken (communication breakdown) and in the end, you want to make amends.

Your dream reflects a relationship that isn't going well or easily. You seem to want it to work, but you are not getting what you want, which makes you angry. Your anger and frustration make you feel guilty. You "don't want to screw it up." Sound like what's going on in your relationship with Mark recently?

Bottom line, your dream reflects a somewhat disfunctional, even unhealthy relationship. You want intimacy (but he pisses on you) and better communication (but your phone doesn't work.)
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Are you getting what you want from this relationship? Your blackout in the dream would seem to be a metaphor for your lack of awareness about what's really going on with it.

Given that, is he the right guy for you? In your dream, your anger and disappointment are clear. It doesn't sound like a good situation for you... and you don't seem to like what it's doing to you. Just looking at the feelings in the dream, is this how you want to feel in a relationship?

Communication might improve matters... but first you have to repair your communication (phone.) If you can't, you should have your answer.

Hope that helps. Good luck!