I had a dream last night, I was in the kitchen with my parents chatting, I was pregnant but it wasn't planned and I had a stomach cramp, first thought was I'm going into labor, but my mom said no and my dad was laughing(almost like he didn't believe I was pregnant). I told them she turned, she's ready I then felt a little form in my stomach but I could 'hold' her from side to side with my hand. I had a bad cramp, and went to the bathroom upstairs, as I had a bowel movement I heard a male say oh no, and a hand reach into the toilet( not mine, as I was alone) I then reached into the toilet bowl and felt the baby and pulled her out. Some how i was scared of this happening before i went to the bathroom. As I saw her she was a little bigger than my hand, and she was not fully developed but you could see she was a baby i guess she was about 25 weeks, she had her hands almost in a prayer form. I noticed that every detail on her hands was formed. Her eyes was closed and she looked peaceful. To her left I saw another baby(i did not know about her). Somehow I felt it was another girl, i thought of looking and making sure but did not want to disturb the baby. She was smaller than her sister(about 2/3 of her size) and was huddled against her sister. The babies wasn't soft like you would assume, it was like they were covered in mucus, but it felt like candle wax a light greenish color with hardened pieces around them, and stuck together? I had a red towel next too me and wrapped the babies in it and went to give them to my mom, because I thought you had to report miscarriage/stillborns. Some how I was relieved, but I as I sat on the top stair (my parents was downstairs) just before I called them I realized I just had twins( a life long dream of mine) and it felt like I lost everything, like my heart was ripping out of my chest. I called out to my parents, they asked what and I saw my mom out of the corner of my eye look up and see me, I heard my dad running on the wood floor. But I didn't hold the babies close, I held them wrapped with one hand away from my body (similar to how people would hold a basket ball on the palm of their hand and their elbow at 90 degrees up). While my heart is breaking.
I'm 23 and not pregnant. Please help me make sense of this it is really confusing and bothering me, since the emotions from the dream bled through afterwards and I feel like I had a part of me ripped out.
Thank you!
