Now before starting I have to put it out there that I usually don't put much thought into my dreams (mostly because they tend to be abstract). This dream has been upsetting me and I guess I'm just looking for some insight. My dream started as I was getting ready to go to the second of two concerts, the first which I had already seen, and was excited to see the next one. My boyfriend, was there waiting for me yet I told him to go ahead, as I still had to do somethings before being able to go. He left, and I ended up running very late, so late I had missed everything, and even he had left. Feeling sad, and upset I began to walk and found my self at an open field with beautiful grass, and just beyond me a building, I walk towards it and recognized a friend(while i recognized them to be a friend, I have no idea who it was), and an attractive man sitting next to her, they asked if I wanted to tag along and I did. We walked inside the building to find a very nice and large pool. We begin to talk, and I find myself attracted to the man with my friend, flirting, playing around, I jumped into the pool then called him over to me, butterflies in my stomach, he went and placed his arms around my neck, and then I kiss him. Suddenly he backs away telling me that it wasn't right and that he wanted nothing to do with me while I was with someone, and that he didn't respect me. And this is what really has gotten to me over the past day, I responded by saying, he doesn't matter, I don't truly love him, not anymore at least.
The rest of the dream was a blur, I simply remember leaving and trying to tell my boyfriend what I had done, feeling extremely guilty about the situation.
I know it sounds silly, but the fact that I could even dream that terrifies me, I've been with my boyfriend for 5 years throughout which due to outside circumstances we have always been in two separate places, and I'm starting to wonder if this dream is telling me something I don't want to hear or even worse say.