I'm kinda sure I'm a lesbian. I'm also sure that some of my dreams have come true.
I dreamt of a dream that I became very confused about. All the while I was having the dream, I felt something was amiss.
The dream went: I'm in a white dress that's flowy and looks like a flower. I look up and see a guy in a blue checkered suit that looks good on his body. This is where I start feeling that something is wrong. I look at his face and realize that he is a guy I know.
Sid. Our history: ppl said that he was into me, I wasn't very interested, my friend became cruel and ditched me for him. In a week of ditching me, they were together. I cried a lot coz of her. I very secretly liked her, too, I think.
He looks handsome ish and I look pretty. We are dancing in front of our school mates and my ex is in the front seat. He looks ok with this. Once the dance is coming to an end, I pull him close and finish with a slow dance. We both stop. He boops me on my nose and says, "you look tired, go sleep." This is odd again because we aren't even close enough to speak to each other like this and he's bopping me?!
Nodding, I start to go when I see her. My ex-friend. His girlfriend. She's in a purple-pink dress that looks like the smaller version of my dress. She looks pretty.
I go to her and I speak to her. She seems civil and I realize that Sid and she aren't together. I'm happy and thinking I might comfort her, spend some more time with her. She doesn't look at me the same way I would. She'll never like me. Distressed and resigned in my defeat, I decided I will move on from her.
Sid sees me and comes towards me. He's worried about me, I can see it on his face. I leave her to go to him.
I hug him and then I wake up.
It felt like I chose him, a guy, over her.
I'm pretty sure that I'm gay but I sometimes get confused. I've told my therapist to prepare an "am I a lesbian test" which she calls the sexuality spectrum test. So, the feeling of the dream being wrong might be because I'm confused about my sexuality. But I want to know why he was in the dream. I barely speak to him and yes, I think we both are pretty smart and would make ok friends/ partners, but I'm leaning towards girls too much for him to be in my dream.
