Well I spent the day trying to figure it why I was hung up on my ex’s with tarot. Then I dreamed about getting back together with him. It was so random. We had an open relationship ship this other woman who was really nice and terminally ill. They nearly commit sucked together, but I convince my ex to stay alive for my sake. He also had this random son. Anyway by the end of the dream the man who was my ex morphs into someone else and I am left explain how buses work in Portsmouth an the various parts of Portsmouth and how I should go to my first love and ex’s house and make up with him. In my daily life I keep hoping he will call, in this like deep longing sort of way in the heart. It is so weird. Most people I have loved I have put behind me but not this guy. Anyway the dream also involved me going out for New Years, leaving school all over again and having no plans for New Years and standing up to some random bully who did some bad singing. Loads of stuff happened with the exe but I can’t remember it all.