So just as some backstory I’ve been having a time in my love life. The short version is I started seeing this guy, C, after he told me that the guy I was currently seeing was up to no good behind my back—it’s a small town people talk and I’m gone a lot for work.

C and I are having a good time for the short time we were actively seeing each other. He gave me a key to his house, introduced me to the family, told me he loved me (all before we were even a couple) and then one day messaged me saying it was moving too fast and communication pretty much stopped. 

Now we have sort of started back up and I have spent two nights with him before I left for work again. He told me he loved me again the first night and I told him to stop with that because he doesn’t mean it/I don’t want that to mess this up again. 

Last night I had a dream where I met up with him in a hostel somewhere abroad. We didn’t go there together we just ended up at the same place. We were talking and he was distant to me and I said “It’s okay you don’t have to be weird I know you don’t like me that much and you’re talking to/seeing other women.” Well then he started yelling at me asking “Why are you always hanging around then? Why can’t you leave me alone? I can’t get rid of you and you ruin everything.”

It felt like the yelling went on forever just on a loop and then I woke up. I’m confused what this means if it’s a reflection on me or my subconscious telling me something about him.