Hello!
Please read my dream and help me figure out what is the problem with me.
About me:
30 years old, married, this month my wife will give birth to my first child. I work in IT, workout a lot, but have struggles with body fat%. Got married 24 years old and my sexual experience before my wife was little. When my wife was not pregnant we did a lot of sex (vaginal, oral, anal, watching porn together), but now because of pregnancy it is really difficult to have sex with her, so we are not doing that. She is living now with her mother, because it is difficult to sleep in one bed, because it is not big enough and big belly is not helping. i have some sleep disorders (difficult to fall asleep and i wake up 2-5 times per night). I love my wife very much, and i would not cheat on her, at least till this point of my life. i could not do that i think.
So about my dream(s):
I have this dream or dreams where there is girl/woman, and it looks like she likes me and i kinda fall in love with her. i want to be with her, touch her, kiss her, pet her, and we are doing those things - it feels so f*cking good. i dont know this female, a cant recall her face, but it is not my wife, at least does not feel like she is. i think hair is different, but at this time face is blurry already. So far so good, but there always comes some person i know or some memories that tells me that i am married wtf am i doing. At this point i have more guilt on my hearth than water in sea and i try to do the right thing - break up with female that i am falling in love with, to go back to my wife. Relationship with this woman is newer sexual, but i want sex with her so bad till moment that i remember that i am married. I have had several dreams like this. details change, but plot is the same and woman change i think. Feeling in my dream is like when is started dating my wife, i was happy, feeling awesome and full of passion. Now i have stress at work, i struggle with my unfulfilled dreams, goals and money problems like we all these days.
Problem with these dreams are that they carry guilt and sadness trough out next day even if i know i did nothing wrong and it was in dream. i still feel sad because i feel like in dreams i go in my subconscious to fill my desires. The passion in our marriage is not as close to what we once had, but im to proud to cheat and i can not imagine scenario where i would justify something like that.
Can some one please help me to get from this mess some sense?
