Last night I had a dream that my Girlfriend was cheating on me with my cousin and her best friend. I went after them; angry and confused. I asked her if she loved me, and she said that she stopped loving me when we stopped making out. I felt as if my life was over. I wanted to die. Then I asked her where I put my gun. I saw the gun. It was a revolver. She asked me if I was going to kill them. I told her no, that I wanted to kill myself. I felt trapped and had no reason to live. She had no feelings, she was emotionless. She wanted nothing to do with me. I had to kill myself. Nothing, but her love would keep me alive, and I had already lost it.
Then, two men were keeping me from her. They were telling me that I didn’t keep my promise. They were holding me back; holding my legs. I couldn’t get to her. I felt I had let her down. I had failed her. What does this mean???
-- Weston, Age 18, Ceres, CA, USA